stop all the world now.

had a great outing with cell to JB. laughing about joanna with her stingray!! breathing in the endless carbon monoxide all the way to JB and back.. ordering 6 roti johns.. plus murtabak? ahhh.. and the kang kong that tasted so bland.. BUT the maggie goreng ROCKED MY WORLD. such great fellowship today.. maybe not exactly fellowship, but i had fun.. not forgetting terence taking the rap for sluggy with her bubble gums ah!!!! she made us wait for her tooo.. EH SLUG, u give a bad rep to TANS okay.. hahahahaha. did u know that chun leCk is a romantic? i didn't.. hahaha. dun kill me for this.. hahaha. =)

He'll catch you when you fall

She knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don’t look back in anger
I heard you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows
If it’s not our day

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide

walk on by. walk on by.. kept repeating 2 songs on my media player.. you know somehow, sometimes u think, "he's got me..", but he hasn't. how different can 2 worlds be.. i really don't know. yes, i am reckless, i don't deny it.. i tink even my parents think so.. or is headstrong the word? i dunno. i tink i've never gotten over the fact how i should do-the-right-thing kinda way.. but yeah, its the christian way.

ever since i landed.. getting more and more incoherent. and my thoughts are just all over the place, and as usual.. i can't put my emotions and how i feel into words.. dunno why. i tink my escapism has taken me oh too far.. into lala land.. thinking that things were okay, but then.. it was plain denial on my part. or was it?

why do we get on each other's nerves? why do we collide on the issues that seem so little after it all?

after thinking about the whole thing, it really is my bad. should have put more thought before i got it. now, the only thing i can do is to stop feeling sorry and accept to never do it again.

after so long.. have we really gotten nowhere?

in the cab back, sue and ah lu said i should stop thinking so much.. maybe i should.

spoke to ah lu all the way till sue came onboard the train. found out things about my cell members i didn't know.. things that happened while i was away.. and all i can say is that.. it feels like its way beyond me. gotta keep the faith, cuz i know He's watching our paths every step of the way. *gotta keep telling myself tat*

could my will be God's will? am i going in the right direction? perhaps the lesson is one that can only be learnt in time. never meant to hurt nobody.

-rationalized, not.-