The God of the how much more.

reading "Growing Deep in God".. the book chun leck bought for us! am at chapter 3 now... just some afterthoughts from the first 2 chapters.

PRAYER.
the power in/of prayer. how to unleash it, how to go about it, how to begin... "Prayer is, therefore, not using God, but finding God." i like this line. cuz its true... sometimes i just mutter everything to Him at one go... just using Him cuz i know He hears me. forgot about the faith. forgot about dependence. it was more like... ah.. give it to Him! In addition, i learnt this.. we are to ask God for the empowering of the Holy Spirit, which He most readily gives because without help from on high, we can say our prayers, but we cannot pray our prayers.

really wanna finish the book before hectic life starts again. NOT looking forward with a capital N. haiyah. everytime school starts, i dunno how to feel. sometimes i feel like i'm wasting away... then i get all bitter inside... other times, i tink i just keep telling myself its His plan... but is it?? learning as i go along. i wish i could take the bitter roots out, but i can't. still sore about it, yes i am. gonna be year 2, gonna graduate as a Mechanical + Aeronautical engineer. but it means nothing to me. seriously. i know i should take pride in what i do, and i'm trying my best to delight.. *i tink i am*... ahhh.. its been a year, and i'm back at the beginning of this circle.

somehow, for the past few days.. feeling rather restless and strengthless. like i'm doing for the sake of doing; yes i know.. i know... *shakes head*. actually all i wanna do for the week ahead is just stay at home and rest. to just sleep. or just watch tv. so forgive me if i say NO to gatherings or whatever not... cuz i'm just seriously tired deep down inside.

leader's conference was okay. had a chance to talk talk with ching lu after tat. gooooood stuff too. got some materials from Elizabeth! ahhh! power pact! good to see Brother Patrick today too. felt pukish from the ride from city hall till i got home. i'm getting sick i tell u.

caught up with BAZHANG! [angie] today. goooood stuff. had the boney cake again. FATS! but yearh.. good time good time.

-how much more!-