mood: feeling like a joke

what a farce. urgh.

do we say we learn lessons just to lessen the pain? do we say Hi, how are you? jus for the sake of saying it? do we say things just to be politically correct? do we turn to humour jus because thats the only way to help deal with the pain?

its painful liking someone so much when you know that u could never be liked with that same measure of like-ness. its painful hanging unto something that u've built for oh so long, when perhaps you're jus tired of trying, tired of being, tired of lookin for answers that u jus, lose yourself? its painful not being able to sound happy because, sometimes,jus sometimes, yr frankness makes me wonder, why do i hold on? its painful to know that, i can never be your equal.

to my good friends.. if u noe what i'm talking about..dun turn around and slap me rite in e face with wat i jus said.

-wacked out of my mind-