so you sailed away...

was strolling back from cheney's house. took my own time despite the grey skies... went by the oh too familiar bubble tea stall.. can u believe it? i actually que-ed for 10min at the wrong stall? hurr. till i took my first sip, i was like.. bleeh. wrong one.. threw my $1 drink away and went to the right one and ordered.. "honey ice bleneded."

it was the same old guy.. the same old stall... the same old feeling i got when we used to run opp sch in between lecture breaks... buying over 10 cups at a time for the ppl in the ssc room. i miss that. i miss wearing my grey shoes, dragging my feet to class.. trying to stay awake esp in triple k's maths lesson. hahaha.. bitching with cheryl or xian ming.. woohoo. and usually.. i'll be walking around bag-less. wonder why? cuz we usually deposit our bags at the ssc room. ahahaha.. and then.. go there and play.. CAROM. or just sleep on the sofas. ahhh. reminiscence.

some stuff seem all too hazy now. others still fresh like it was only yesterday. people. people make the difference.

contentment. i'm not like other people. or so i say. honestly, i'm rather goal-less or ambition-less. i know that's pretty bad but ahhh... i tink i lost all my "what do u wanna be when u grow up?" answers.. cuz as u grow up, u realize... ahh.. forget it. what do i wanna be when i grow up? a business woman. hehehe. yarh. thats a desire. own a business.

a few more days and the semester begins. i have nothing to say.

the song "best i ever had" kept ringing in my head the entire day. dunno why. prob was like the champagne supernova song... something about it. many moments i wish to press "Pause", many other moments i wish to press "Rewind" to re-live it again. time waits for no Man. moments too.

u can be happy yet hurting all this while. u could have a smile and laugh all the time yet cracks deep down don't surface in time. u could pretend as though nothing gets to you and seem like you don't care, when deep down inside you're screaming "i doo!". you could be all this and more but nothing like u used to be before.

to a grey sky morning.