back from bangkok.. what a life changing experience. oh it was..

shoppin was great as usual, but this time round, i had severe food poisonin right on the day before i was coming home. it was the LONGEST nite in my entire life.. you know how u tink yr day couldn't have gone any worse and then BAM.. i couldn't stop puking. had so many quiet moments within myself, all those thoughts about what/who/when/how.. everything just flashed across my mind while i rested in between pukes or when i was layin down in bed. i saw all the faces of who i'd be leaving behind, how they were, all those fleeting moments that u plead would remain.. the story of my life.

yet here i am, back in singapore.. entering this post. what a mighty God we serve.. now i'm so much more willing to give up matters into HIS hands. realise that we are truly NOTHING. read Kenny's blog and something just clicked.. about being judgmental and see them as my co-workers and NOT my brothers and sisters in christ. how so very true.

before i left for bangkok, was piled with camp com stuff... many at times jus keep pushin myself to do a good job as admin, to prove my worth i guess? i've always felt that I have nothing much to offer as a person, like all i'm good at is talk crap. when i became a cell leader, it was high time i straightened out my life and outlook.. but how dronish life is.. i slipped back into me. tat was why time and time again before we had our meetings, we prayed and waited on Him and tat was when i got my footing back.

our worth is not determined by what we do for people to see. our worth is not determined by how much words we say cuz words are cheap. our worth is not determined by the temporal pleasures and insignificant things we do to run away from living. but slowly and surely.. i'm sure we'll find our worth in Him. like how the song goes.. "that's why we praise Him, that's why we sing, that's why we offer him our everything..." how bout us? do we? do we give him our everything cuz he did so for us?

finally got my exam results tis morning.. had 2B's, 3C's and a E. and because of that E, i have to retake that module.. which is.. PHYSICS FE1001. which translates to... i have TWO PHYSICS MODULES next semester. i dunno.. maybe its an indication that i'm not cut out to be in engine? show me the way...

2 more weeks left to a more busier me. parents are leavin to visit my grandma in malaysia tmr, how i wish i could go and visit cuz my grandma really wanna see us.. and i'd really wanna go and spend time with her before she leaves us.

Something hurts you, yet you know that it shouldn't. God help me with this one.

so, i'm ending tis post with, thanks for all the prayer support during that eventful nite.. THANNNNKKK YOOOOU so much! really felt.. supported to the maximus! lik those support pillows.. but mine was a gazzillion times better! very thankful and blessed to have gotten to work with all the camp com.. gotten to know tay much better cuz we take 293 home tog after meetings.. saw Kenny in a dif light.. a good different light.. everyone has just been .. great.
till the camp starts.. God is with us!

-WE WILL NEVER WALK ALONE-