right back at you.

mood : feeling the pressure, getting tired, cracks surfacing in time.

gonna try and turn in earlier today... wanna spend more time with Him.

yes indeed cheerios, i'm feeling rather down of late. and the answer to that : haven't spent quality time with Him. i tink QT should be... quality time/quiet time at the same time. how frail we are without Him.

whilst travelling to school today, felt lost. mixed feelings i guess. everytime i feel like i'm gonna blow up, all those ideas of how i would have let it out would pop into my mind.. pretty entertaining, but then.. i just let it go. or rather, i tink i just let it in.

mum's condition is sorta stabling. nearly broke down badly thinking about all the what-if's. why am i getting tired? here's why... gotta wake up at 6am everyday to go down to slavish jungle. study about things i don't like till afternoon. make my way back home. don't forget how crappy i feel whenever i'm on long mrt rides or just on buses. hopefully nap when i get home. make sure boy does his stuff. meanwhile, still helping out with household chores at the backdrop esp after mummy shouldn't do so much. gotta start doing tutorials and going thro lec notes. take care of cell stuff. follow up as much as i can. my day ends with me knocking out the moment i touch my bed. not forgetting once sept comes, my driving lessons are packed up.

gonna drop my Media in America module because i know i won't wait 4 hours for a 3 hour lecture.

maybe some of what u guys do are so much more than mine... maybe. but yeah.. DON'T get me wrong, i'm not feeling angry or why is God so unfair. i know that He knows that all this, i can bear. just gotta lean more on Him. looking forward to BS-ing with Gina. she's my BAP partner. YAY. finally.. enforced bible study. i like. cuz i'm lazy inside and i need in-graining. so that part, i'm excited. at least i can better know Gina too. =)

my heart screams... "i'm tired!". my head goes.. "keep on going!". was sitting at the bus stop, waiting for slavish 199, and i was thinking.. how many times we think we're doing our best, we're stretching ourselves thin, how we keep doing and trying to make everything right and as best as we know how... is that how God would have wanted us to feel? i mean.. for the past few weeks i keep thinkin.. what i'll say to Him on THE day. actually i personally believe that its only right that we do what we do; i mean, that we keep doing our best no matter what. that we go all out. with that being said, do use your own "judgement" on how far to stretched yrself... but i think the crux is.. to not get bitter. to not feel that no one appreciates. to not feel that you're the only one out there trying to make everything work. me and my thoughts. =/

God empowers, not strains our soul. God strengthens, not bring down. God blessed us with all our talents, not shame us with what we lack. God. what more is there to say?

this song made my heart crack up. this song reminded me to THINK about Him again. this song reminded me of my emptiness and nothingness without Him.

when i think about the Lord
how He saved, how He raised me
how He filled me with the Holy Ghost
how He healed me to the uttermost
when i think about the Lord
how he picked me up
turned me around
how He set my feet
on solid ground

-and sings my soul-