be still my soul, be still my soul.

tired. flapped out tired okay. reached home at 8.15pm. i can finally tell sufeng.. OEI! i understand!!! ahhh.. how she travelled back and forth last time even after kayaking training.. i'm still wondering. =/

tired of having to listen and deal with my schoolmate problems day in-day out. same old stuff. same old issues. ah. this is more tiring than doing my tutorials. it so is. don't get me wrong, i like them.. just that i wish they could just GET ON WITH LIFE and stop being so oblivious to the things/ppl around them. this is me going to blow if i have to listen anymore of it. anymore i tell u.

everytime i get worked up or just feeling "urgh".. really wanna go down to the Apple shop to get my ipod. if not for the slavish price on it, it would be in my bag everyday.

gonna tighten my braces this thurs. URGH. so i'm chewing what i can. =)

looking forward to...
FRIDAY! come home + sleep + spend time prep-ing for sunday
wanna go and support Engie's band "No compromise" on saturday...
FIRST camp com meeting this sunday
printing cell t-shirt

often wonder how great God's heart is. i look at my own heart, somedays i feel like fainting[cuz of work or stuff], other days when i think about how much i lack as a person cum leader, heart aches. dunno whether u've felt this before, but have u felt like someone was squeezing yr heart? as in, literally? till it ached so bad? i mean, not the asthma kinda pain, but the somewhat like the heartache when u broke up with someone kinda thing?

my heart is going in many directions now. family, cell, camp comm, friends, sch work. wooohoo. divided u say? nope. all independent to be interdependent. hence, NOT mutually exclusive. hahaha. i'm going nuts.

what is left undone in yr life? what is yr greatest regret?

STOP mulling. start living.

oh shut up and be still. [STILL TRYING]