He's the man, man.

woke up and realised i was sleeping on my fan remote... slavishness. went to the toilet to see this huge rectangular red imprint on my forehead. ha. boooooya.

played with my brother today. good fun. tested him on his multiplications + some english stuff like... "as small as.... , or as noisy as....". when i was in primary 2, i was still doing 8+8 = ? GOLLY GOODNESS. how much the syllabus has changed. =/

finally started reading my 2008 electrical circuits stuff. took eons but i got through. twos complement. hurr hurr. logic gates. SO logical. finally got time to watch some tv... the "sanduo" chinese series was showing.. the one with a gazillion episodes? hahaha. nice relief from electric circuits. *call me crazy*

ms was gooooood stuff. goooood stuff. how we chinese take for granted the "freedom" in choosing our religions. [though some of us faced persecutions but never ever to the point of killing someone for it]. somehow i attended ms today with my insides rather a-okay, not flustered... stood up to stand in proxy for mummy. just prayed, and prayed.... prayed till i broke down. thank goodness a gospelighter came to me cuz i was sitting right smack in the middle.. so its rather hard for them to walk in cum pray.. but thank God she did. Godsent, definitely. felt comforted and at the same time, saw and imagined how my mum's condition will be healed.

honestly believe that as we pray in tongues, the Spirit interceeds for us. that to me is a gift from God. i know that His healing has begun in my mum's life... she was touched last week... this week she stayed at home to rest... today she came home telling me about an old friend she met at the market and how her friend has cancer.

me: "did u invite her to the miracle service ma?"
mum: "but she's a buddhist... i saw her, then i felt so sad... "
me:" YES OF COURSE CAN LAH...!"
mum: "is it? okay.. i will call her next week to go with me."

so u see.. everything happens for a reason. didn't blame God when mum found out she had 4 fibroids and a cyst in her womb... knew it was for a reason. this is the reason, for her to bring her friends to Christ too. i'm not saying "YAY!" mummy got sick, i'm saying... God will NOT allow someone to suffer just for no rhyme or reason. it is thro' our weakness, He works.

just like what He's doing in my mum's life, in my family's life, He will do much more in yours. just persevere in prayer. it took me 6 years to bring my mother to Christ.. just pray. just believe. be bold in sharing. let your life be a testimony for Him. =)

ditzy mode
been going around telling everyone i wanna get married. those la-la moments. i know i want a swing in my house. those in the balcony where u can just spend the whole day reading, enjoying?? yarrp. i want those ratten ones. comfy. AND photos everywhere... black white, coloured... toilet door to have "EXIT" written on it or something like that. i want my phone to look like a toothbrush or something weird. grin. *day dreaming, again*

spangles. oodles. much to think about.
living. dreaming. wishes away.
fleeting moments just pass us by.

make no mistake.
the answers aren't so clear.
we wait. we pray. we hope. we wish.

what don't you know?
what do you see?
a future. i wish.
was a meant to be.

my life is not my own. for you are Great.