camp!

excited about the upcoming church camps.. a long way more to go, yet i can feel it. revival. taking on the role of camp commandent. exciting exciting. these few days been praying over the camp com, roles to be filled... directions needed, but most of all, His will be done, not mine. learning the ropes as i go along... so far so good. got my own excel list of things to be done... sound like admin again.. BUT this time round rather different. WOOOOOOT!

excited to be part of such a wonderful team. *huge metal brace-ish grin*

spoke to Bro Pacer today. went well.. he asked "Why do i feel the passion for my cell?". in a few seconds i answered, "i dunno why or how, but it stems from my love for them." somehow, somewhere in time, my love for them grew within the burdens, within the rebelliousness, within the times when i felt the heartaches.

i'm stubborn in the things i believe. therefore sometimes, it takes awhile to adjust to the way how ppl see things, do things and how they appear to be. behind every face, behind the facades we hide behind... do we carry with us our hurts, our disappointments, our bitterness? is it piled upon each other that the very foundations its laid on are mere cracks that become more acute with time? inasmuch as we try to be... its time to give it up to the Lord. time to stop hurting. time to stop carrying but releasing. =)

training myself to be refreshed in the Word. while waiting for daddy to get ready or while on the mrt train to school, such travelling time... so precious. so i begin my day with His word. my eyelids were like eyeswideshut 2 days ago, but nevertheless.. i took out my bible... read a chapter.. dwelled on certain verses.. felt refreshed. felt joy. felt sustained for the day ahead[9 hrs of school]. happy happy to have Him. woohoo. so amazing to spend time with Him.

felt purposeless last week... the flesh is speaking. hahahaa. but now, things are looking up. perspectives ironed out... now with additional roles. may be helping my friend out in one of NTU's some publicity stuff with short films and photo taking. EXCITING TOO. harnessing my passions in the right way.. i hope.

something to share

you know how sometimes u get off the phone feeling so unsettled, yet there's nothing u can do. u think about why u said what u said, or what the other party said... u tink, u mull over it, u ask yrself why u did what u did.. hours can pass just like that. hurr hurr. BUT, for the past week, even though there were points like these, i was able to go on doing what i was doing, or turning in to bed without the thoughts scrambling here and there. i can sense His hand in this matter.

sometimes i wish i knew the answers. sometimes when the flesh takes over, feel sad-ish about how things are... its all these sometimes that takes a toll? dunno how to explain. but now.. things are looking up, cuz i'm looking up to Him. yay.

patience. understanding. communication.

my bro and mummy just came back from charlie and the choc fact! its like 11.45pm on a school nite. LOL... =)

this is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it.