the existential loneliness of the human subject.

i picked up the phone, to hear you say... goodbye forever.

there i was, getting all furious about not closing the windows cuz of the heavy rain, whilst trying to swtich modules, while trying to get my brother to eat... and then, i got the call.

rushed down, and like jo, i didn't know how to feel. how do u say goodbye to a friend that left such wonderful footprints in your heart? i still don't.

so there i was, while the rain trickled down upon us all, i said goodbye with the tears that beseeched for you. the days in school where u took out yr handkerchief to wipe yr face, how your laughter sounded, i miss your eyes that spoke to us, that shade of brown, that smile and chuckle, your subtle reassurances, yr wonderful listening ear.. i think about the band days, the australia exchange trip... there u were.

all it took, was a van to dash the red light, to ram and crush u right under it, and u were gone. your silent goodbye to us all.

as i sat waiting to see the very last of you, i prayed that somehow, i'll see u up there. why did it have to be your going away for us all to meet again? you of all people. you.

you left such deep footprints in all our lives.

my last goodbye my dear friend.

strike up the band
i found my friend
he laid there without a care
your last goodbye
my first hello
spangles of sunlight
or so i thought
tears just went on by

the sky said not a chance
the clouds gave in
they cried an awesome loud
drizzled. tickled.
i wish you were
but u laid there still

wishes. dreams. your aspirations.
now silence fills the air
with memories, and coloured days
thats all that's left of you
the fallen leaves
that shade of brown

goodbye you.
goodbye.

goodbye.