was reading "Travelling light" by max lucado while on the bus today.. and this passage spoke to me..

"Just like sheep, we have wounds, but ours are wounds of the heart that come from disappointment after disappointment. If we are not careful, these wounds lead to bitterness.. The large portion of our problems are not lion-sized attacks, but rather the day-to-day swarm of frustrations and mishaps and heartaches... So, we like the sheep, get wounded. And we, like the sheep, have a shepherd. "We belong to him; his people, the sheep he tends" psalm 100:3. He will do for you what the shepherd does for the sheep. he will tend to you."

it got me thinking.. let's just put it this way..i've been sharing my disappointments and heartaches to friends.. to people.. to human beings, but not to God. it's a reality check.. it's also a wake up call. what wei siong said durin our camp meeting, bout' persuasion and conviction.. wa.. i just felt.. wa.. screwed.

when i was bathing yesterday.. i realised that there were so many tiny fragments of dirt in my wound.. and i sat down.. took it out.. bit by bit.. and it just dawned upon me.. how God tries time and time again.. to take the problems and agony away.. just like how i'm doin for the dirt.. it hurts like mad.. but it's necessary. there i was.. touched and i told myself.. i have to learn to lean on Him and let commandment one reign in me. i'll try.

"The people who influence us most are not those who buttonhole us and talk to us, but those who live their lives like the stars in heaven and the lilies in the field, perfectly simply and unaffected. those are the lives that mold us. if you want to be of use to God, get rightly related to Jesus Christ and He will make you of use unconsciously every minute you live." -oswald chambers

-the motherLOAD-