emotion: void yet a tinge of saddness.

SOS tmr, yet i'm not how i should be feeling. listenin to the welcome to NUS CELL cd. good songs, songs that can still touch my stoned heart.

void. too many things have happened, too many things that have gone unspoken, too many times when i've said "its okay" when it isn't. too many times you've said "i'm sorry" when sometimes u mean it, and others, u say it for the sake of saying it.

we dig out our own graves. too many times i've looked beyond what we were, what we said, what you did, what i've done becuz i felt there was a future. i felt tat it was worth it. yet here i am, feeling void. feeling way beyond what empty words can convey because when u've been hurting for so long, all u ever want is to make things right. you made me happy, e sacrifices; i thank you.

when u look back, are there more roses or thorns? do we look beyond the thorns but count our roses because we can't bring ourselves to admit that there were but too many thorns? do we learn to live with the thorns because its hurt till it doesn't hurt no more?

i want to fly and get out of this place. just a little bit more.

-such pointless-ness-