jus reached glorious home awhile ago. realised that my bro's having a birthday party in TWO DAYS. how could i have forgotten?? hahha. i didn't.. he's official birthday IS NEXT WEEK. =)

took today to jus sit and re-read some stuff i got. re-read this letter a long while back.. a letter i got before i left for bangkok with eugene n gang. its truly been soo long. so long since u last wrote. sometimes i tink that the only reason why you're still hanging around cuz you feel responsible. hanging for the sake of hanging. is that a form of responsibility? is responsibility a kind of love? commitment will grow into responsibility, i mean if u tink about it. and isn't tat a way of loving someone too?

why am i still hanging unto us? jus for the sake of hanging on? becuz i know that at the end of the day, we can make each other happy? becuz i have faith in us? becuz i know that we're great together? i can't say that i have an absolute answer to "why am i hanging unto us?".. but it jus disturbs me to know that even if i leave, you'll still be okay with it. its painful to know that i am but your ordinary. how u can tell me some of yr fears and frustrations.. and go on to say, that i'm not sympathetic enough. that very night, after u went on to do yr work, i sat under the great black sky... a little hurt, a little bruised, but definitely more aware and conscious of how much i mean to you. the crux of it all, i'm just someone u met along yr journey in life.

-eat,shoots and leaves-