dad sms-ed me today bout' my sister.. she's in the hospital, on drip. slight infection to the kidneys. read this sms after i came out of the pool.. after i spoke to daddie.. as i walked back to my room, felt all tat i was doing.. studying.. rushing deadlines.. taking exams.. all seemed so pointless. i miss my sister. very much. hope to see her once her plane lands in singapore. its times like these, when i wish i was home. really think that my mum is devastated.

jus to let u noe, my sister's based in taipei for her work. she's a casting director. yes.. if u tot i was wild and loud, u have YET to meet my sister. she was the one who got me my so called no-curfew since i was sec 1. she's amazing and she reassures me everytime that its okay to not be the norm. to go against the grains of tradition and all that.

today reminded me of... how much i lack in following up with my parents. with my brother. eeeeks. disgusted with myself.

k.. gotta go and read my readings. one of the pointless things we do, i really wonder, when we look back at our uni life.. will we even remember what we were rushing for? sacrificing our sleep for? hurr. oh wells.

-gong xi fa cai-