just read Kenny's blog.. wee wee! realise that my life is like lackin in lotsa ways.. i mean.. not that it has no meanin.. just that.. i dunoo.. perhaps i've been bumming for too long?

went to rachel's party today.. had a blast.. such yummylicious cakes!! wawawawa.. i was a satisfied slave!! spoke to wei siong bout smu.. he's so excited bout his interview.. and me? i'm still feelin a sense of guilt? just feelin sucky? cuz i can't get thro to the lady cuz she's always NOT AT HER DESK?? argh.. nvm. but the idea is there..

i don't know.. on my way home.. had the time to think bout my life. perhaps i've been whining too much on my blog.. perhaps all i do is nothin.. i dunnoo.. just lookin back at the past 4 months and how i've been living it..

the first few months.. i can truly say.. i gave my heart all out for cell.. and now.. i'm like in a stagnant phase? gosh. need prayer.. ya. need to get a guitar and start strummin.. something that i've put off since january.. argh. till i return from bangkok.. i will get my fingers going.. cuz i think it'll help me in my QT and deal with my emotions more effectively? just a tot..

WHY DID I HAVE TO FALL DOWN!! argh.. steps steps, bad for knee caps! argh.. hate it.. but it hurts.. argh.. and the burn i got from the bike.. sian. leg is DISFIGURED.. and i can't wear jeans.. cuz of my wound at the knee.. and aiya.. the burn is freakin itchy.. why why why?? so.. if u see me.. pls pray that it'll be okie dokie by wednesday.. by faith.. i'll be HEALED! grin.

love my cell... sometimes.. i just feel like breakin down in tears.. but when i look at ppl like yane.. alena.. or jian han.. i find the strength to jus hang on.. and keep going.. God definitely plays such an impt role too... but.. it's just hard to explain. never expected to be a cell leader.. so.. jus hope i ain't disappointing them.. so much to tell em.. so much to let them noe bout my experiences and falls..

haven't knelt down in a long while.. ever since...... a few days prior to my bicycle accident.. have to humble myself once more.. can't take living with so much on my mind.. so much in my heart.. so much that i can't begin to explain.. only He knows.. i guess He's just waitin for me.. to go to Him.

"The purpose of God is not to answer our prayers, but by prayers we come to disscern the mind of God, and this is revealed in John 17. There is one prayer God must answer, and that is the prayer of Jesus- "that they may be one, even as We are One." Are we close to Jesus Christ as that? ... Some of us are far off it, and yet God will not leave us alone until we are one with Him, because Jesus has prayed that we may be." -Oswald Chambers