goodbye bed, goodbye fridge, goodbye toilet, goodbye computer, goodbye my sofa and tv, goodbye my squeaky fan, goodbye my walls, goodbye my closet, goodbye my lovely table and room. goodbye house. GOODBYE.

ay.. last few hours before i'm ship off to my hostel! infact.. just 4 more hrs.. it's like 2.47am now.. just done packin and there's the motherload to bring over.. haha.. haven't even packed in my "wang-wang" biscuit and my canister.. and water bottle. gosh. ay.. left my huge bag at the hostel and forgot to take it back.. ayyaya. oh.. gonna miss my home oh so much. gonna miss the keyboard that i'm typing on.. and the floor my toes are on.. haha.. ay. will go roll on the floor later.. man. u guys have no idea.. miss my home already. so.. STOP TAKING YR HOUSES FOR GRANTED.

was reading angie aka bazhang's blog in the day.. and am so encouraged. she's really like.. definitely a Joshua. how she'll meditate on a verse thro the day or thro the week and so on and so forth.. how she really just put the Lord FIRST in EVERYTHING.. and i do mean, everything. angie, thank God for placing u in my life.. definitely.

was meditating on this verse thro' the day.. Romans 5:3-5 "Not only so, but we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

just felt so happy.. so blessed. can't explain it.. how having hope in the Lord will not disappoint us... and to rejoice in our sufferings. everything has been going oh so smooth.. since last week.. and just so thankful for everything. received an sms from my cell member asking bout my day.. and another on msn too.. so blessed. so very blessed. all i can say.. is that God will NEVER shortchange us.. never.

i've come this far.. and i say that the above verses has been so very true in my life. so humbled by everything.. and feel so filled once more. God is good. yes, He is. note: it's not in past tense. because he will always be so, good.

goonna go off and be abandoned to Him now.

-smile, God loves you-

HALLELUJAH!!!!!! just wanted to let the world know that.. MY MOTHER RECEIVED CHRIST on sunday!! so happy like the great grandmother load of mothers! found that out only yesterday morning while i was packin my stuff to go to the hostel...and i chanced upon two books for new converts.. then i remembered on sunday she attended this play at the Victory Family Centre opp my house.. amazed. really.. just so amazed that the Lord just did it. amen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so happy so happy.. so now.. i'm keepin my dad in prayer.. just thank God that my parents are pretty open about religion and stuff.. so.. ya.. must help my mum in getting started.. grin.

attended NUS cell last nite.. learnt the difference between persistence and perseverance. Luke 11.. changed my attitude towards prayer.. after so long u noe.. realized how to pray. and chun lek sharing with us his testimony.. so encouraging i tell u. and it's so true.. we really have gotta start praying.. i mean, speedlight lacks prayer.. and very glad that we're getting down to it.. gonna rally my cell on and gather to pray..

it's so true.. if u don't even have a prayer life with God.. how can u possibly get together and pray corporately? so.. well.. ay. food of thought.

yup! let me side track for awhile.. oh.. bought funky farm handwash for my toilet!! hahah.. bought some funky stuff for my room and so excited for hostel living.. and prob getting the fridge from kai.. yay!! grin. bringin my bug's life poster over to.. and ya! so exciting till i think my hair's growing longer!! hahaha.. weeeee

anyhow.. tis week.. very eventful!! lectures.. classes.. hostel.. mummy.. family day.. holy ghost meeting.. MS.. cell.. can't wait to see them.. life.. cousins.. sister.. and the list goes on! so much to do.. and not forgetting... to pray.

i'll leave u with this verse.. "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:3-5

listening to the "welcome-to NUS-cell CD" as i type away.. it kicks ass!! esp song 5! mamabull i tell u!

oh oh oh.. went to NTU today for a day of listening to talks again... got my matric card and all i can say is that.. HA. hahaha.. if u want a look at it.. haha.. make sure u're sitting on the floor.. cuz u'll prob laugh till u roll down the hill or something!

BUT anyhow.. there's something i so wanna thank God for.. HALL2!! never realised how bless i was until today. my own toilet!! wa.. and to know that out of 15 halls.. only mine and hall 1 has it! and another thing.. our room conditions are so good i tell u.. so this is my resolution.. everyday to wake up and say.. "Thank God for this room." really.. really.. u guys have no idea.. the rest of the other halls.. the rooms are like erm.. ..... millions of dots. hahah.. so just very thankful.

OOOOOOOH.. met joanne to go IKEA!! ate those lovely balls again.. ahaha.. so happy!! bought like photo frames.. pillow.. a metal plant bucket to put my pens and markers.. haha.. slippers! grin. such a happy day...

OOOOOH and guess what.. on our way back on the mrt.. YANE, my cell member sms me that he had a blast during cell yesterday and asked how i was?!!! so happy.. so grateful.. it's times like these when u realised.. that well.. yr efforts bore fruit! grin. grin. grin. ooohh.. and yesterday while on my way to celeste's party.. cheney asked "how is the toilet? i prayed for u!" wa.. at that instant.. i just wanted to cry tears of joy!! cheney!! haha.. thank u so much.. just so soooo.. blown away. thank u Lord. really.. sometimes u just get so depressed with stuff.. and it's moments like these u say.. THANK U LORD!

so glad was able to meet Matthew.. my first cell leader ever at the party.. so happy! haha.. can really say.. wa.. i'm so sorry.. hahha.. like the way we behaved during cell last time was unforgiveable i tell u.. haha.. but well.. we've grown up.. amen! thank God for ling and jo and cheney or else.. yikes! u guys noe what i mean.. thanks! hahah..

ok.. gotta go pack my room stuff now. so much to bring.. so little brain juice left. later.

QET! finally.. i'm home.. hahah.. bathed and all. well.. thanks for the prayer support to those who receive my sms!! hahah.. millions of thanks. felt super pukish and headache-ish when i reached NTU.. thank God for my hostel room.. went to like rest awhile on the bed first.. hahaha.. grin. just hope that i pass the test!! yayya.. gosh. so many men in NTU engine i tell u.. and all their english sucks i guess.. or maybe they screwed up their GP.. hahah.. hot hot hot!! hahah.. kinda regret not going for any camps.. well.. just pray that God will help me and i'll get good friends!! wee! my timetable looks pretty good so.. hahaha.. fingers crossed!

fridge.. urgh. hahha.. well.. i brought 2 photo frames and my stereo over already.. gonna bring the TV later on.. my pillows and carpet will come later too.. and my bug's life poster will be there too.. and gotta get more photo frames and pins for my board!! so exciting.. and cup to put my toothbrush.. and.. yar.. oh.. air freshner and nice smelling balls to put in the closet along with the moth balls!! hahaha.. so exciting.. well.. in God i trust! amen!

still haven't tot bout it.. went shoppin today and yesterday for my friend's present and haha.. so glad i finished shopping today!! hahaha.. so exciting too.. hahaha.. yay! : ) listenin to maroon 5 and alicia keys just now.. rocks to the mamabull.. hahaha..
-weeeeeeee-

HAPPINESS!! went for NUS cell today and it feels so nice.. haven't been IN a cell for like 7 months and really.. it's so nice. tot it'll be weird and stuff.. but hey.. God is gracious.. yupp.. and must really thank God for chun Lek(i think it's spelt this way). when he taught bout the parables.. it was so in depth and i really really learnt.. true bible study i tell u! so.. i'm just super thankful for him and the ppl in it.. thanks rachel and ling and sueann for makin it such a.. well.. smooth first time? but also thank the rest too la.. but ya.. these 3 really.. thanks for the encouragement! definitely. feel like i've received after so long of giving and giving.. so hard to describe.. just really thankful.

ooooh.. went out with sueann today.. had a lovely time! bought 2 tops from INC in far east.. gosh. i MUST go slim down.. definitely.. urgh. oh oh oh.. PRAISE THE LORD!! just did my matriculation.. my time table is so much better than i expected!! doing life sciences as one of my modules!! yay!! sounds exciting!! so happy!!! yupp yupp.. so.. thank God. really.. so much to be thankful for u noe.. for a wonderful and supportive family.. wonderful friends..

sueann, if u ever get to read tis.. THANK you for praying for me and with me.. and ya.. it's really such a blessing to have u in my life and sharin bout our cell group and stuff.. and for listenin to my whatevers in the wee hours of the morning!! so glad yr fren got the PGP(i think it is) room!! yupp! and LING.. if u ever get to read tis soon.. i know i dun really update my blog.. but ya.. THANK you for everything i guess.. esp bout the choir stuff.. and serving.. and the talks bout NUS arts.. haha.. really really appreciate it.. i know u care.. so.. thanks TAN TAN!! hahah.. grin. oh.. and also.. this is for RACHEL TAN! the mother of mothers.. love u to the mamabull.. thanks for being there and being so supportive and understandin and such a wonderful listening ear.. really.. u are a gem precious in God's eye and a wonderful blessing to be able to serve with u in the cell-light ministry and to have u as a friend!! definitely. thank u kenny.. let's hope i made the right choice.. cuz i feel the peace? hahah.. grin. thanks for the whole Friends season! Joanne.. i can't wait to meet up with u!! haven't talked talk with u in a million years.. lookin forward to friday's chocolate buffet at the fullerton!! yum!

also.. thanks lesley for just being so like know everythin when it comes to matriculation and stuff! thank God that yr my roomie.. haha.. grin. angie aka BAZHANG.. thanks for yr support and encouragement.. and the talks on MSN.. greatly appreciated! hahah.. oh.. and sufeng.. haha.. LOL.. thanks for the company in gym and going to NTU.. and the TALKS.. ooh ooh oh.. ya!! so exciting yar.. :)

oh.. please keep shi han in prayer? yup.. he sms just know.. so.. let's keep him and the army guys in prayer.. pray for strength, wisdom and God's favour to be upon them. thanks..

fridge!! met tis girl at cell and she has a fridge.. gotta get a fridge.. so pls pls pls.. it's really impt to me and my roomie!.. really need it.. we wants it.. (in smiggles voice)

well.. tmr's my QET.. haven't written an essay in a gazillion years.. so.. hope all goes well! hmm.. lookin forward to uni.. getting all excited about it.. and yar.. just thank God for good modules this semester.. not frightened or doubtful.. just lookin forward. definitely.

oh.. yes.. pls also pray that i'll have inspiration for this sunday's activity. have no idea yet.. and yar.. not having lesson.. so i dunno wat i'm gonna do with my cell.. they need a break.. so do i. grin. just wanna say that ya.. i'm refreshed and ready.. goodnite.

MOTHER OF MOTHERS!! hahah.. got my HALL 2 ROOM KEY!!! yaya!!! so happy.. love my room.. it smells and it's dusty but hey.. at least it wasn't as bad as i had in mind!!! hahaha.. oh oh oh... not forgetting the toilets!! grin. 2 rooms share one and it's pretty spacious.. hahaha.. can't wait to clean it all up and MOVE IN! my.. HALL 2 is like funkified to the mamabull.. happening! grin. oh oh oooh.. not forgetting.. LESLEY!! we have to get our fridge soon k.. THANK U LORD!! our room's big enuff to have like a full blown life size fridge fit for storing the GRANDMOTHER load of food!! so.. on that note, love my hall!

BUT.. reality bites. realize NTU is so ulu.. so away from the rest of the world that i think it's faster for us to go to johor bahru than to go to town.. hahah.. i think i'm rite! gosh. well.. just feels sad. can't explain it.. just sad. hopefully when i get my fridge.. i'll feel mighty better!

just wanna say.. THANK YOU LORD! haah.. for my hall 2! gonna pray and see whether i should go for the hostel camp.. it lasts.. SEVEN DAYS.. startin from monday.. but if i go.. well.. i won't have time to spend it with friends.. and like clean up my hostel room.. and roll on my bed and kiss my fridge and bathe in my TOILET!! help! but.. yar.. will get to know the motherload of people.. and well... get settled into hostel living? cuz tats what it's all about!! looking forward..

followed up with jon ong today!! yay.. happinesss!! haven't like talk talk to him in a long while.. followed up with other 2 members yesterday.. so much stuff to fine tune for the cell.. getting there!! amen! cheney called to ask bout my hall.. hahah.. cuz i shared with em on sunday that i'm prayin for the room with the attached toilets!! hahah.. so nice to know that they care! yane called pretendin to be NTU.. haha.. nice nice boy.. he wants to join choir too!! helped my other cell member, clesie, with maths!! grin. must meet up with her and do rock foundation..just so happy that everything is falling into place. THANK U LORD!

well well well.. so THOSE OF U OUT THERE WHO HAVE A SPARE FRIDGE OR KNOW ANYONE WHO SELLS SECOND HAND FRIDGE or something.. please LET ME KNOW!! i need a fridge!!! many many thanks!

feeling sickish.. urgh.. must be the tom yam yesterday!! gosh. ooooh ooh.. MS!!! first time ever serving as a gospelighter!! really thank God.. went with ling to pray with one lady.. and later i prayed together with tis lady who had cancer. after prayin for her, i went back to my seat and was just.. shocked. thankful that the holy spirit led me as i prayed but shocked. realized that people came with all sorts of sickness.. cancer, leukemia... really can declare from the bottom of my heart, what a mighty God we serve! such an experience..

then on e bus we gathered to pray for choir.. it felt so right. so much to pray for.. so much to do.. and just so glad that we prayed. the power of prayer.. amazed.

SUNDAY!! cell was good.. 2 new comers!!! eeeeeee har!!! very happy that they invited their friends.. but yar.. i know i was supposed to be happy and joyful and all.. but at the end of it.. felt so frustrated cuz the members were so reluctant to pray for one another.. which i shouldn't have. argh.. hate myself. sometimes i just take matters into MY own hands and not let Him work. that's still work in progress.. definitely. just feel like i'm imposing perfection at times.. urgh. next cell session must must must.. W.W.J.D? hmmm..

ooh ooh oooooh.. went for PRAC!! really thank God for jo and ling.. jo has this like it'll-be-ok look.. very comforting.. carol, jan, sharon, celeste.. their.. "OH YR BACK!!!" hahaha.. very nice.. heart felt warm. BUT, i'm still not ready. so much tots raced thro my mind.. "i won't be sittin with em in service", "i won't be havin lunch with them and walkin wif them to church", "evangelistic sundays.. ".. and my flock is still young. uni life haven't even kicked in yet.. so, i'm gonna keep it prayer. i must. spoke to engie bout it.. really thank God that she understands.

SPOKE TO JINLI!! hahaha.. so happy! finally spoke to him for a good whole 20 minutes.. miss him so much! yar yar yar yar.. he's going taiwan soon.. so exciting!!!

2 more weeks till school starts.. God help me. goin down to NTU on thursday.. get my keys for hostel!! oh YARR!! i got HALL 2!!! thank u LORD!!! wee hee.. hope we get the room that has our own toilets and not 2 rooms to one toilet!!! hope alvin ong gets hall 2!! can go supper or something.. grin. gonna miss my bumming lifestyle. doubt i'll ever bum liked i've bum for the past 7 months.. maximizing the time left!!! must go roll on my bed and appreciate my toilet and fridge and TV!

later going for a movie with jo,engie and celeste! so exciting.. BUT gotta go wash toilet and go on my exercise machine first.. YAR!

"Our Lord never worried and He was never anxious, because He was not "out" to realize His own ideas; he was "out" to realize God's ideas." -oswald chambers

hmmm.. finally.. i get to spend a day in. no gymin, no swimming.. turned down sentosa.. haha.. cuz well.. i'm not a very volleyball person! but most of all.. i don't have the.. well.. hahaha.. figure to flaunt in sentosa.. except to be a ball!!

woke up to find 2 of the cutest kids i've seen in my house.. hahaha.. my bro's bestfriend's cousin.. hahhaah.. i bet their dad's ang moh and i bet they live in america and are here for a holiday.. hahaha.. woke up in my pyjamas to open the door for them... cuz my MUM sent my bro to his schoool bus.. gosh. hahaha..

i've resolved it(engineering).. not bitter.. not upset.. i think this time round.. i'm really goonnna TRUST God. it's so easy to say.. trust God la.. trust this.. trust that.. but i can honestly tell u.. getting to the "i will TRUST GOD" part.. took a long while. when it shouldn't. how i keep tellin my cell.. to be a do-er.. to TRUST God in ALL circumstances.. will share with them this week bout my uni stuff.. cuz.. it's been such a wacked experience.
-For those out there: i'm fine. going by God's grace and will do my best in readin up those forsaken physics notes! ha. no worries.

a friend said tis to me.. "so long if u've resolved it within yourself.. then go for it. don't go into something that u'll be bitter about and as time goes by.. the regret will just keep adding up. make the best most possible choice at that time and TRUST God". haha.. amen!

other than that.. my life.. seems to be picking up. thank God. cell is going so well.. inviting emily for this week's outreach.. i pray that sunday will be THE day for her. it's gonna be her 2nd time or is it.. 3rd time in church.. *fingers crossed* and must pray.

finally gettin my fat ass to the gym.. LOVE the stepper to the maximus.. tats the best thing that happened to the fatty world other than french fries and tomato sauce! been goin to the gym with sufeng!! wahaha.. so fun.. so nice.. she's going engine too!!

caught up with Angie.. aka bazhang on tues.. it was fun! went shoppin yesterday.. haha.. ZARA had this fab dres.. wahaha.. 3 more weeks in the gym first!!! it's been a marvellous week.. met up with friends.. worked out.. sorted out my priorities.. yar! lookin forward to what's to come..

"... but He wants you to recognize the disposition you were showing- the disposition of your right to yourself. The moment you are willing that God should alter your disposition, His re-creating forces will begin to work. The moment you realize God's purpose, which is to get you rightly related to Himself and then to yur fellow men, He will tax the last limit of the universe to help you take the right road."- Oswald Chambers